MONEY TIMEE. No lah, just kidding. The end of Ramadhan = Eid-ul-Fitr (or Aidil Fitri) = Raya!
Weeeeeee...
I always get excited during this time of the year because it means I get to see my cousins, my aunties, my uncles, my everyone! For me, this time of year is the best, since there will be food (Malaysian food is da bestt!), family reunions, national costumes and colors :D
That is one of the reasons why I love Malaysia so much. There are colors everywhere I go. The colors, each one representing an emotion, are all the parts of me and who I am; my identity.
It is usually quite difficult for a person, especially in their teen years, to arrive at the epiphany about their life and who they are. Honestly, I did not really feel proud to be a Malaysian. It was only until I moved back to Malaysia after living in Brussels for two years that I really understood what home meant for me. I, now, finally understand what "Home is where the heart is" means. And now that I am not in Malaysia anymore, I feel even more attached to it than ever.
I will always try to keep close to my friends and family in Malaysia whenever I have the time. I still can't let go of it because, well, its my home. I know I should be used to it by now considering I have been moving around since I was 1 year old. From Tokyo to Vietnam, Vietnam to Malaysia, from Malaysia to Brussels, Brussels to Malaysia, and finally, Malaysia to Prague. That is quite alot of moving and packing and unpacking (its sooo annoying) so I suppose I have gotten sick and tired of it, but I know it is much more than that. I just miss home. :(
One of the worst things about missing home is that I literally miss everything that goes on in the lives of all my relatives and friends who mean a lot to me. I will not be there for my cousin's baby's 1st birthday, his first word, his first step. My grandparents are quite elderly, and I only have three left in my life. What if (God forbid) something happens, and my family isn't there? What's more is that I can't even communicate properly with all my relatives since, after moving around so much, I was not taught the proper Bahasa Malay enough so that I am fluent in it.
Sighh... I have to stop there because I tend to get a bit emotional when I reflect upon these things that are attached to my very soul. Hah! See? I'm being so deep now, I have to stop. Hehe. Anyway, I hope you, who ever you are whether it is my friend, foe, family, acquaintance, etc; have a sense of understanding of what I am truly feeling inside and that you make the best out of your life and not to take things for granted. No matter where you are, who you are, how old you are, everything in life will eventually become a part of you; you're identity. And no matter how big or small it is to you, trust me, you will regret letting it go.
Selamat Hari Raya, Happy Eid Mubarak and Maaf Zahir dan Batin to all!
Assalamualaikum...
